The Multi-headed Fear Monster

What do perfectionism, procrastination, comparison and insecurity have in common? They are all heads of the fear monster! They have all kept me from making this first “real” blog post. Oh, it’s not the writing. I enjoy that. (I’ll tell you a secret: I have a notebook full of potential blog posts.) I am a perfectionist when it comes to many things. Some other things…not so much…but if it’s important I want it to be good. I don’t want others to look better than I do. So, I’ve been trying to figure this blog site thing out. Of course, I compare everything to blogs that have been around for a long time or have been professionally done. I want mine to be perfect so I procrastinate. Fear keeps me from just jumping in and doing it. I am insecure *gulp* and don’t want anyone to think I’m stupid or silly or…worse…not worth reading.

This morning, when I was awake at 4:00 am. for absolutely no reason, it just hit me. If I wait for it to be perfect it will never happen. I have so many things I want to share. I can’t let the facts that I’m not sure I have a real “home page” and I can’t figure out how to put my picture where I want it keep me from sharing ideas that could help other people. So…here I go. Posting on a blog site that is not yet perfect. Realizing that it is, like life in general, a work in progress. Realizing that insecurity can paralyze me or I can choose to be empowered in spite of it.  If I wait for perfection it will never happen. And that’s ok. In fact…I think it’s more than ok.